How could he leave me here all alone when he knows that I'll miss him a lot?

How could he leave me here all alone when he knows that I'll miss him a lot?
He knows that i have soft point there.
My love will leave me alone here in Myanmar.
How could he? Why did he do that? How did he do that?
When he knows all along that i can't go with him to Singapore.
He kept those secrets from me. He will not told me until like tomorrow he will leave Myanmar, if he had a chance to go to singapore if i didn't found out.
I hate him. I hate him. I hate him.I hate him. I hate him. I hate him.I hate him.
I hate him. I hate him.I hate him. I hate him. I hate him.I hate him. I hate him.
I hate him. I hate him. I hate him.I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I hate him.
And i mean it. He has heart to leave me here.
I know I'll live. But how can't i be missing him so much after all the times we spent together without missing him?
Even going to Short trip is quite bad for me, how can i pass through while he's at Singapore and not calling me. And i can't call him or talk him whenever i miss him.
He's such a bad guy. WHY WHY WHY???????????
Why every time i am the one who is left not the one who leaves?
I hate this situation a lot.
Please Good Spirits look upon me and may I never be left again.